If others give you an opportunity, grab it! This is what most of us have been told. What if, just what if after we grabbed the opportunity by the horn and soon found out that we are incompetent to use this opportunity to its fullest potentials, should we give it up voluntarily?
Earlier this year, I went to look for and obtained a volunteering position at a local French radio station for the sole purpose of wanting to improve my French in a natural, French-speaking environment. I was given and taught everything there was needed to execute my tasks. The tasks weren’t difficult. I took detailed notes all the way through my orientation sessions. Unfortunately, when I was finally on the tasks, on my own, I cracked. My desire of not wanting to make any technical mistakes, compounded by the pressure of feeling the need to communicate my thoughts with the proper and demanding French grammar put me into a mental state of numbness, incapable of uttering a single word at the end of the day.
After I got home, I came to grip with personal incompetency. Despite volunteer coordinator’s effort of persuading me to stay, I gave up this precious opportunity, apologized for my lack of competency and let her know that I’d return one day when I’m ready and competent to fulfill the role.
Opportunities that intrigue us don’t come often. Hence why I completely understand why majority of people firmly believe in going with the flow and learning on the job, even when we are feeling uncertain about it. That being said, one’s incompetency is a hindrance to a fully realization of a once in a lifetime opportunity. If we are fundamentally incompetent, when the initial excitement and curiosity fade away, what’s left, awaiting us is daily psychological turmoil that we have to put up with due to our insistence and rigidity.