I Despise My Own Arrogance

As I go along with my daily life, as I am gaining more self-confidence, I can’t help but also come to notice and to despise the increase of my arrogance.

My arrogance usually manifests itself in the form of anger and judgment, which can be awakened, easily and irrationally, by the smallest things others do that are perceived to be in my way.

At a fruit and vegetable shop earlier this afternoon, I stood in line behind a woman, who had a full bag of produce. She and her cart took up a significantly more space than others did. Her movements were chilled and slow. Carrying a heavy big watermelon and a few fresh bananas with my bare hands, I could notice, instinctively, the deterioration of my attitude.

The heaviness weighed in my hands plus the hunger I felt made everything that I saw an irritant, which included the lady in front of me, who became a silent target of my negative judgments.

As we moved closer to the cashier, the lady turned around, all of sudden, and looked at me. I thought, ” Gosh, here we go. She felt my vibe and is going to give me a roast.”

“Would you like to go first?” She asked me.

I couldn’t believe what I just heard with my own ears, ” Sure…Thank you!”

I was shocked by her courtesy. So much so that a sense of lightness instantly replaced the condensed heaviness that I held on the inside of my body seconds ago. I proceeded to pay for my purchases and thanked her once again before I left the shop.

This experience has made me open my eyes wider to see and become more aware of the negative side effects that may come as results of my becoming more self-assertive and confident. Self-improvement isn’t a path to perfection; rather, a never-end life’s request for betterment. Although we may become better than who we were yesterday; however, it doesn’t mean that our improvement can rid us of flaws and other imperfect human traits. Let’s remember this reality.

City Busyness

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Living in a busy city, many of us probably are not aware of just how busy we all are. Busyness is a measurement of speed also a way of life in the big city. Our legitimate identity as city dwellers implies not only our capability to lead our lives at the speed of city’s heartbeat, but also our adaptability to thrive on it.

Once in a while, when we accidentally step out of the city busyness and completely are immersed in the tranquility of the nature, it is then that we realize where the ultimate life resides, underneath all of the hustling and bustling in the city streets.

Le Rouge Et Le Blanc

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Je n’ai vu le drapeau Canadien, pour la première fois, qu’il y avait des années. Je me souviens d’avoir été si fortement frappé par le vibrant rouge d’érable canadien, en le regardant. Avec la couleur blanche classique, la combinaison des couleurs du contraste, harmonisée par une simplicité du design ont réussi, ensemble, à faire le drapeau Canadien d’une beauté de dignité à faire rêver les gens de chaque coin planétaire.

En promenant tout seul dans ce jardin tranquille, je me suis rappelé d’un lointain souvenir.

Ticking

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The clock is ticking, when we notice it. The clock is ticking, even when we are unaware of it. Many marches can be stopped, except for the one of time.

Many people believe that time is of the essence in everything they do, because it is. No power in our world can permanently freeze the fleeting steps of time.

Directional Decision

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Everyday, while being out and about in public, we can either get irritated easily by the small things that others do or make an effort to not let them bother us.

The moment of choice is always just seconds away. Every new second is like a new starting point, where we can be headed down the path of either self-deprecation and resentment or the one of self-contentment and awareness. The directional decision is ours to make.

Dormant

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Why is it that, in our human history, some people are more revered than the rest? Why is it that their words and ideas are more influential and life changing than others’? Is it all because of the fact that they are not afraid to speak from their hearts, refusing to stay dormant to their authentic hopes, dreams, and desires?

The reason why most of us find it boring to lead a routine-based daily existence is due to the intentional coverup of our authenticities, whatever they may be, for the purpose of pleasing others and the outside world. In staying dormant to the genuine calling of our hearts, we all are the Sleeping Beauty that seems to be loved by almost everyone in the outside world, except, respectfully by us.